Weekend Woes.......

Okay, so, just because I am on maintenance, have changed my employment status to "part time employee" and now have less time on my hands than before, I seem to have slipped a little. I forgot to track yesterday and today and blew my points. I have tried to get the amounts of food I ate as correct as possible as I don't have any idea how some of the food has been prepared but I've given it my best shot and that is all I can ask for.

I was supposed to be baptised this weekend but because of Sophia's soccer match tomorrow, I have postponed it. This upset me greatly last night and I think that led to my downfall a little. I try very hard not to eat my feelings but having TTOM and dealing with emotional issues, my resolve has crumbled a little and I haven't felt good about myself. I have questioned so much that is going on and wondered where I stood in the grand scheme of things. That said, tomorrow is another day and I will get there, even if it means scaling back my points for the day.

I did however get to see my brand new 1st cousin Sia who is the most adorable baby and so quiet too! She is an angel and I got to change her nappy. It was funny as I was asked if I still remembered how to do it (I've only not done it for 11 years!) but I did it perfectly, it was like riding a bike, I remembered everything. It felt good changing a nappy but boy was I glad about handing the baby over to my auntie for a feed. My childbearing days are definitely over and I don't want more kids, that stage of my life is gone for good.

I also went and bought clothes for myself for the first time since I got to goal last week. I ended up with a pair of size 12 pyjamas and three tops for winter in size 12. It was nice getting things from the normal section and finding that I had no issues with fit with them but some of the tops that were a size 12 were not really a size 12, they were smaller in size and I resent the fact that we do not have a standard size here in Australia, it means finding clothes is a traumatic issue for so many women. When will they get it right??? Women all over Australia don't want to walk into stores to find that a size X in one brand is a size Y in another. It isn't fair for our self esteem and it certainly isn't fair for our wallets either as some brands have charged more due to requiring more material for clothing. Designers need to get with the program!!!!!!!

Oh well, guess I will reverse the damage hopefully before weigh in next week.

Until next time,