Difficult Week

This week is a very difficult week.

I have found out that two people I love and care about have cancer. The one disease that seems to strike a lot of people is one which has now affected me directly. One person is a very close relative and the other a very close friend. It is very dark and depressing and it hurts too. How do you get past something like this? How do you not want to chuck in the towel and say that things are too hard and that you want to enjoy life the way you want instead of adhering to something? It depends on what you consider important.

For me at the moment, the importance of staying healthy, staying sane and doing things for myself help me get through every single day. I am watching my food intake and saying no when I don't feel like something, I am making sure that I don't have money to spend on fatty foods and bringing healthy alternatives instead as snacks to work (gotta love sweet chilli and sour cream rice crackers!!!!) instead of raiding the lolly jar, biscuit barrel or buying a hot dog from across the road. Drinking 1.25L of water a day certainly helps keep you full and keeps your mouth, throat and stomach busy while you are working.

It is too easy to give up and say that life isn't worth living when people around you are dying. For me, shutting down is not an option. Hence why I am making an effort to make sure I keep going. My first conquest is 12Km worth of running/walking next weekend to support the Animal Welfare League. The next conquest is to get back to the gym if I manage to secure the position going at work in 8 weeks time. I will get there, I am strong, I am fierce and nothing is going to stop me.

The question for you is, what strength do you have and how are you going to use it to your best advantage? There are different types of hard in the world (and I am facing mine at the moment) but you are the one who chooses which hard you want.

Until next time,